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"The longer I live, the more I observe that carrying around anger is the most debilitating to the..."

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 19:30:58 -0700

“The longer I live, the more I observe that carrying around anger is the most debilitating to the person who bears it.”

- ― Katharine Graham (via bcandthekitties)

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Sun, 16 Jun 2013 21:59:43 -0700

T minus 7 days.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 17:02:44 -0700

My surgery is officially scheduled for June 20th.

Warm mini pitas w/ raspberry preserves and whipped honey. Plain...

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 14:55:00 -0700

Warm mini pitas w/ raspberry preserves and whipped honey. Plain yogurt w/ stevia and sliced raw almonds. Fresh pineapple. [8 p+]

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Thu, 13 Jun 2013 12:38:48 -0700

Mini pita bread w/ garlic hummus. Plain yogurt w/ stevia and...

Wed, 12 Jun 2013 17:08:00 -0700

Mini pita bread w/ garlic hummus. Plain yogurt w/ stevia and sliced raw almonds. Grapes. [9 p+]

Thank you! I’m glad too! I can’t wait to start...

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 16:01:26 -0700

Thank you! I’m glad too! I can’t wait to start living life again. Caramellow is SO good…. milk chocolate and gooey caramel is my kryptonite. Sadly… it’s not healthy at all. Thanks for the chili recommendation. :)

Life.

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 13:41:05 -0700

Sorry my blog has been so uneventful lately… I guess it accurately describes my life right now.

So here’s another bullet post:

I haven’t been counting points lately but I’m back to eating healthy. No more Cadbury Caramellows… for now. My weight has been chillin’ at 123 lbs which shows me that I can easily maintain without worry.
I received a call from my doctors office this morning… my hysterectomy is tentatively scheduled for the 20th - 9 days away! I’m excited to be pain-free but scared of the actual surgery and being in menopause at 32.
School is kicking my ass. I have zero concentration. Luckily I attend a college where I can take time off as needed.
I can’t wait to start working out again. The doctor said that after surgery I can start walking (brisk) after the 2nd week but doesn’t want me to do anything more until 6 weeks post op. I can’t wait!!!
I’m currently looking for freezer meals, crockpot, and easy to prepare meals that are low calorie/weight watchers friendly. Especially meals that are vegetarian. What are your favorites?

Looks like I don’t have to renew for a while.

Sun, 09 Jun 2013 11:07:39 -0700

Looks like I don’t have to renew for a while.

06.08.13 - Intake & Accountability.

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 20:55:57 -0700

Intake:

Coffee w/ creamer x2. [1 p+]

B - Yogurt Parfait (Plain yogurt, Kashi crisp cinnamon crumble, chia seeds, cinnamon, and stevia). 2 Plums. Strawberries. [6 p+]

S - Strawberries. [0 p+]

D - Leftovers - 1 slice bacon chicken artichoke pizza w/ red pepper flakes. Red lettuce w/ cucumber. scallion, and Trader Joe’s parmesan ranch dressing. [6 p+]

D - Dark chocolate dulce de leche ice cream bar. [3 p+]

Total Points: 16

Note: Not much of an appetite today.

Morning Weight: 122.6 lbs
Multi-Vitamin: ✔
8 Glasses of Water: ✔

Workout:

None

Total:

16 / 26-32

Yogurt parfait (Plain yogurt, Kashi crisp cinnamon crumble, chia...

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 14:55:00 -0700

Yogurt parfait (Plain yogurt, Kashi crisp cinnamon crumble, chia seeds, cinnamon, and stevia). 2 Plums. Strawberries. [6 p+]

06.07.13 - Intake & Accountability.

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 09:14:59 -0700

Intake:

Coffee w/ creamer x2. [1 p+]

B - Yogurt Parfait (Plain yogurt, Kashi go lean crunch, mixed berries, chia seeds, and stevia). [6 p+]

L - English muffin w/ creamy natural peanut butter. Fuji apple w/ cinnamon. [6 p+]

D - 1 slice stuffed meat pizza (didn’t eat crust). 3/4 slice bacon chicken artichoke pizza. [13 p+]

Total Points: 26

Morning Weight: 123.8 lbs
Multi-Vitamin: ✔
8 Glasses of Water: ✔

Workout:

None

Total:

26 / 26-32

Yogurt parfait (Plain yogurt, Kashi go lean crunch, mixed...

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 13:29:00 -0700

Yogurt parfait (Plain yogurt, Kashi go lean crunch, mixed berries, chia seeds, and nunaturals stevia). [6 p+]

…. and a cat tail.

Lately...

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 12:23:00 -0700

My eating has been all over the place. I haven’t been counting points consistently. I’ve been eating a lot of sweets lately.. like entire bars of Cadbury Caramello (my favorite milk chocolate ever!). Thankfully, I’ve been maintaining my weight of 122-123 lbs.
I’m freaking out right now!!! I’m waiting for the gyno/oncology office to call me back about scheduling my hysterectomy. Just typing that was incredibly tough… I’m shaking like a leaf!
Exercise is still nonexistent. I barely have the energy to walk down the stairs to make meals and such. The iron supplements prescribed for anemia (and to gain my energy back) isn’t working. I think I’m done taking those because they make me nauseated and clog up my pooper.
Lately I’ve been lurking on tumblr but haven’t had the words to make posts.
I’m back in school … but wish I could have taken another month off. My head just isn’t in it right now.
I just realized this post is depressing!
On a positive note, Today I’m back to counting weight watcher’s points, posting Intake & Accountability, and taking random photos.

Back to school. First class up: Project Management.

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 13:18:00 -0700

Back to school. First class up: Project Management.

Back to the basics. Sourdough English muffin w/ ham and an egg...

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 13:19:00 -0700

Back to the basics. Sourdough English muffin w/ ham and an egg over medium. Muller frutup splendid strawberry yogurt. Fuji apple w/ cinnamon. [9 pt]

Thank you all for the sweet comments and messages! You guys are awesome! I’ll respond to you...

Fri, 31 May 2013 20:56:16 -0700

Thank you all for the sweet comments and messages! You guys are awesome! I’ll respond to you all soon…. I’m an emotional wreck today!

(Personal) Medical Issues & a Life Changing Decision.

Fri, 31 May 2013 12:19:33 -0700

What has been going on:

5/23 - I had an ultrasound because of all the issues I’ve been having but specifically they wanted to find out why I’ve been bleeding so long (approx 11 weeks). They thought it might be new cysts, fibroids, or polyps.
5/24 - I received a call from the hospital at 9:00 am - I knew immediately it wasn’t going to be good news. The NP said that the chocolate cyst that had been drained 2 months ago is back, it’s the size of a grapefruit maybe even bigger now. I was referred back to the oncologist gynecologist and was scheduled an emergency appointment for 5/30 (the day he returned from vacation).
5/30 - My appointment was scheduled for 9:30, I was sick to my stomach because I knew the news wasn’t going to be good.
The doctor confirmed the chocolate cyst is back and my left ovary is covered with cystic matter. He’s unsure why I’m still bleeding but I’ve been diagnosed with abnormal uterine bleeding. He said he was going to cut to the chase - I have a few choices what can be done:
1. Change birth control (it might help) but would be a temporary fix. It wouldn’t help with the cysts and might not help with the bleeding.
2. Lupron - A shot that would induce my body into menopause for 6 months. It would only be a temporary fix that has a lot of side effects. It wouldn’t help with the cysts.
3. Endometrial ablation - A surgery where they would destroy the uterine lining which would make me stop bleeding. It wouldn’t help with the cyst(s) and pain I’m dealing with.
4. Hysterectomy - Surgery where they would remove the uterus, cervix, fallopian tubes, and ovaries. This would remove the cysts, stop the bleeding, and in theory stop the pain. My doctor would also remove as much endometriosis as possible. It’s recommended that I go on hormone therapy after the procedure because I would be in surgical menopause.

My doctor told me it is my choice and he would support any of them. I asked him what his recommendation would be and he said the hysterectomy because of the issues I’m having now and the ones I’ve had in the past couple months (cervical pre-cancer - Cin 3). He also said with my family history, I have a good chance of following suit - My birth mom had chocolate cysts and ovarian cancer.

I couldn’t made a decision on the spot but was told when I was ready to call the office and they will schedule it.

I barely held it together until I got to the car… I cried and cried and cried. My poor boyfriend, he didn’t know what to do because I’m not the type to be so emotional. He tried his best to reassure me and make me laugh but I honestly just wanted to be alone.

At this point I still haven’t told anyone yet because I haven’t made a 100% decision plus I really haven’t wanted to talk about it. I feel so emotionally drained and well…. sad.

But after thinking about it all day yesterday and today, as hard and scary as it is to admit, I’m leaning towards the hysterectomy route. Mainly because my quality of life hasn’t been good lately and I really want it back. To me it seems like the best choice out of all of them that should fix the problems.

Having to make a life changing decision today was extremely...

Thu, 30 May 2013 15:06:00 -0700

Having to make a life changing decision today was extremely tough. Sugar in large quantities was required.

Current Weight: 123.2

Thu, 30 May 2013 14:39:28 -0700

Current Weight: 123.2